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Artist, Shoepainter,
Model, Photographer,
Body Painter Shannon
Kringen! |
[Mar. 1st, 2015|05:30
pm] |
Artist, Shoepainter,
Model, Photographer,
Body Painter Shannon
Kringen!
celebrating that i
got hired as a
photographer, a body
painter and a shoe
painter in the last
few days! magical
manifesting of
goodness! oh and
modeling gigs are
flowing in also!
Art Model Shannon
Kringen
http://www.shannonkringen.com/figuremodel.htm
KringWEAR
Hand Painted Shoes
by Shannon Kringen
http://www.shannonkringen.com/kringwear.htm
Head Shots by
Shannon Kringen
http://www.shannonkringen.com/headshots.htm
Face and Body
painting by Shannon
Kringen
https://www.flickr.com/photos/shannonkringen/sets/72157603987298625/
Creative
Photographer
Shannon Kringen
http://shannonkringen.com/photography.htm
https://www.flickr.com/photos/shannonkringen/ |
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taking ashwagandha
herb and vitamins
and minerals and
meditation instead
of medication |
[Mar. 1st, 2015|04:18
pm] |
taking ashwagandha
herb and vitamins
and minerals and
meditation instead
of medication
feel so much better
after the
spiritually based
support group. it's
a grief and loss
group. i shared
about my step dad
dying, my cat dying
and grief about my
rent going up, my
injured feet and how
that impacts my job
as a model and
active/athletic
person and all my
challenges in life
right now- and they
gave me feedback on
how i judge myself
for being "moody"
and that is actually
adding to my pain of
having "mood swings"
and reminded me to
be mindful of my
thoughts/feelings
and my judgement
about being the way
i am. i forgot how
much judging myself
is actually more of
a problem than my
actual moods. part
of me is always
stable and strong
and ok even when i
freak out. up and
down i go every hour
and yet i am always
okay at the same
time. i have a grief
chart to refer to
and a list of human
needs met and unmet
and feelings. i'd
like to get more
clear on my thoughts
and feelings and be
aware of how i am
thinking and using
my mind. to love and
heal is the goal.
they also reminded
me that our culture
tells us to be
"normal" and neat
and clean and
organized and
logical and yet to
be a natural human
is to be messy and
have all kinds of
thoughts and
feelings. i feel
validated and
refreshed. i also
told them of me
taking ashwagandha
herb and vitamins
and minerals and
meditation and
healthy
eating/sleeping/exercise/massage
instead of
medication for my
mental health issues
and they encouraged
me to trust my
choice on this for
now and see how it
goes. |
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take a rest in terms
of making art for a
while and see how it
feels |
[Feb. 11th, 2015|10:48
pm] |
i
am going to take a
rest in terms of
making art for a
while and see how it
feels. no pressure
to sell or market my
work at all. just do
it for fun if i want
to and share it if i
want to. just for
the love of making
it and expressing
myself. no more
thinking i should
make it a business.
i want to make money
another way entirely
so my art can be
purely as expression
and not a product. i
might change my mind
but for now that is
how i feel.
http://www.shannonkringen.com/ |
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Art Model Shannon
Kringen |
[Feb. 11th, 2015|10:38
pm] |
had a good calm and
quiet modeling gig.
got to do a 3 hour
sitting in a chair
pose. kind of funny
because it was the
2nd night of a pose
another model
started and i
finished. they had
me duplicate her
pose even though our
bodies are
different....and
they just adjusted
their
drawings/paintings
to fit the changes.
Art Model Shannon
Kringen
http://www.shannonkringen.com/figuremodel.htm |
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BOTH gifted and
challenged
simultaneously |
[Feb. 11th, 2015|10:29
pm] |
photos i took of
temple grandin at
her microsoft talk.
my point about me
maybe having some
autistic traits is
that i am both very
gifted and yet very
challenged. this is
how high functioning
people like temple
grandin are. BOTH
gifted and
challenged
simultaneously. i
want to figure out
how to make the best
of my gifts AND
learn to better cope
with my deficits.
her great ted talk
her:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fn_9f5x0f1Q |
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on my desire to not
make art anymore |
[Feb. 10th, 2015|10:13
pm] |
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on my desire to not
make art anymore: i
seriously feel happy
at the idea of not
making art for a
while! not sure i
will again! ? i just
wanna relax and be
alive! and not feel
like i have to prove
anything! i still
wanna write in my
blog and journal but
have no desire to
shoot photos or
paint |
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recent ramble
shannon kringen
style |
[Feb. 10th, 2015|09:36
pm] |
random thoughts
joined together
here:
if i learn to be
more honest about
who the real shannon
is (and what i want
to give and
receive), then i
will be able to have
better
relationships. i
think i rarely let
anyone see the real
me. trying to figure
out who that is
right now big time.
i have been polite
my whole life around
others and thinking
i need to "be nice"
all the time and
it's not the real
me. (being kind is
great- i just mean
on a deeper level i
have not shown
people the real me.)
*** to survive the
dark parts of my
childhood i learned
to be a chameleon
and adapt and not be
the real me with
needs and wants and
desires as a coping
mechanism which now
only hurts my adult
relationships***
booked an eye exam
and physical exam at
two different places
that are covered by
my healthcare. will
book the dental exam
tomorrow. feels good
to take care of this
stuff. grateful i
have healthcare
coverage. will learn
as i go how this all
works.
feeling better
mentally. getting
organized. getting
ready to do my
income tax soon. i
worked for 12
different companies
in 2014 so have an
assortment of W-4's
and 1099's to add
up. plus dental,
vision and doctors
appointments to
make. i do my income
tax with TURBO TAX.
makes it easier.
i suppose i do like
the idea of getting
married to a man i
find sexy and who
wants to share the
burdens of life with
me. just have never
thought i was
capable of
manifesting this in
"real life" due to
my emotional wounds.
online and in video
i might even be more
real than in person.
i person i am more
shy and reserved and
hidden away.
i am talented but
who cares? i am not
having any fun. i
might quit making
art. it feels wrong
and like an ego
"show off" type of
thing...i am not in
love with it
anymore. i would
rather take care of
animals than make
art.
I don't really try
to make money with
my art that is not
my point. Modeling
is what I do for
money and it's
draining me, I need
to find a new way to
maKe money. So used
to modeling I'm
afraid to quit. I
have a BA degree yet
huge phobias about
finding a new job. I
feel trapped and
need emotional
support in changing
careers. I love
plants and animals
and nutrition and
health.
my parents met in
college and got
married because of
me. the marriage
lasted 4 years. i
saw my dad on
weekends. they have
certain core things
in common and then
they have big
extreme differences
that make them
incompatible. seems
like they were meant
to create me then
part ways.
for valentines night
my dad and hopefully
a couple friends and
i am going to hear
my boyfriends band
play at:
Mod Men band at
Dawson's
Saturday, February
14 at 9:00pm
Dawson’s Bar &
Grill, 5443 S.
Tacoma Way, Tacoma,
WA
my real dad is
taking my mom and i
out to dinner again
this weekend to
cheer us up and help
us with the grief
process since my
step father passed
away. so kind of
him.
if i loved myself
and was my own best
friend i'd book
myself a massage and
not worry about the
money! i'd also
maybe cash in my
frequent flyer miles
and go on a trip.
slept 11 hours last
night. might do the
same tonight.
depression is here.
i wish i could work
with animals. they
make me happy. dogs
and cats and goats
cheer me up.
i wish i could marry
some nice guy who
wanted to take care
of me, i just want
some support. not to
live off a man. just
to share the burdens
in life- share the
prices of things.
split things 1/2 and
1/2
i have synesthesia
too. when i hear
sounds i see
shapes,colors and
textures dancing in
my head. tori amos
talks about hearing
music when she sees
visuals too. it can
go either way. with
me it's sound that
makes me see shapes
more than visuals
that make me hear
sounds. HOW ABOUT
YOU?
want to find a new
job. TIRED of being
the naked person.
get this: my
boyfriend's band
might add a TOM
PETTY song to their
set lists for some
of their live shows!
they are a rock n
roll cover band.
"Refugee" might be
their choice! i am
thrilled by this.
his idea and then
his band mates said
"we were thinking
that ourselves that
adding a petty song
would be good" yeah!
Back to feeling
awful. Modeling
today body hurts.
Feet and hips now.
Had to fix bicycle
and bill is $151.00
ouch! Needed two new
wheels and brake
pads. Got one used
wheel for cheap
other wheel is new.
Best deal they had.
Need to be safe on
my bicycle. Need to
find easier way to
make a living. Am
exhausted daily.
To anyone worried
about me I am doing
well. Thanks for the
supportive comments.
Resting now at my
guys house. My mom
sold more of my step
dad's art. Many of
her neighbors are
buying the
paintings. This is
the first time she
has sold art
directly. Nice to
not have to do it
through a gallery
she says. I was
hoping she would do
this! They all miss
my step dad and are
happy to hang his
paintings in their
homes! So sweet that
a sad event like
this brings people
together.
if you want to buy
art from me you can
buy prints of my
work here:
http://www.redbubble.com/people/shannonkringen
Spending another
night with my
boyfriend tonight.
So grateful to have
him in my life. He's
cooking us dinner.
Last night we went
out for fajitas...I
treasure having
someone to be
affectionate with
and talk and sleep
and learn with. He's
encouraging me on
many levels. Also
grateful the
instructor is
lecturing so I get a
break from posing
yet get paid for the
entire 6 hour class.
So grateful today's
6 hour modeling gig
is portrait so I can
rest my feet that
are injured! I also
get to wear a dress
so it's easier to
not have to dress
and undress all day
long! Did short
standing gesture
poses with my
cushioned shoes on!
Sitting the rest of
the day.
if anyone in seattle
wants to buy me a
massage certificate
feel free! i have
pay pal too:
kringgoddess@yahoo.com
i am REALLY TIRED of
modeling. mentally
and physically. it's
hard work, and so
tired of being all
self conscious of
how i look etc. i
need to find new
ways to make money.
data entry at home?
voice over work?
gotta be something?
i know TMI i have
hormone issues too.
my period is all
messed up. it's been
regular since i was
13 and now it's not
suddenly. it's early
and late etc. all
catty-wampus. so i
am moody for many
reasons. going off
wellbutrin, period
is changing because
i am 46 now and it's
time, step dad
dying, mothers money
issues, my own money
issues, all this
stress is flipping
me out, my dad is
passive aggressive
in a subtle way.
etc. love is the
answer.
if you want please
pray that i will
love myself and
forgive myself and
everyone i am angry
with! thanks.
i have done a lot in
the last 20 years.
maybe i just need a
rest. i made a book
http://www.blurb.com/b/4063156-art-identity-and-the-sacred
and i have my
website:
http://www.shannonkringen.com/
i want to rest now.
someone just said
something rude to me
about me not being a
real artist or model
because i once
pulled a tampon out
of myself on my tv
show "Goddess KRING".
(I WAS TRYING TO
MAKE A POINT ABOUT
NATURAL BODILY
FUNCTIONS BEING
HEALTHY, NORMAL AND
NATURAL) i deleted
their comment. and
banned them. i
cannot deal with
those kinds of
comments right now.
so if you think i'm
not a real model or
artist because of
some of what i do
being offensive to
you then GO AWAY AND
DON'T SPEW YOUR HATE
ON ME. THANKS.
GOING TO STATE THIS
AGAIN AS IT'S THE
WISEST THING I HAVE
SAID ALL DAY: Goals-
stay in balance and
know I'm valid just
like everyone else.
When someone tries
to invalidate me I
want to learn how to
ignore it. we are
all valid in our own
ways. Thankful I'm
dating a guy who
does validate most
of my feelings and
he knows how to
agree to disagree if
need be but does not
tell me I am wrong
if he does not agree
with me. We respect
each other's
different minds.
Amen to that!!!!
I AM VALID AND SO
ARE YOU.
no matter what i say
here it's
misunderstood on
some level. it's
hard to explain what
i am talking about.
it's complicated and
there is subtext
ALWAYS. time to get
myself into a
nurturing state of
mind. i need to heal
and grow and take
better care of ME.
find support from
others AND be my own
best friend.
i need to stand up
for myself. i have
always felt like my
parents were more
important than
me...and like my job
was to "get out of
their way" or help
them and wait for
them to figure out
their love lives and
careers and then
maybe they can raise
me. it never
happened and i am
now 46 with no
spouse of my own, no
kids, and facing
that my parents are
getting old and then
my job will be to
take care of them. (i
am their only child)
neither one of them
had other kids with
other spouses. i
need to STAND UP FOR
MYSELF AND BUILD
SOME KIND OF LIFE I
LIKE. I STRUGGLE
WITH MOOD ISSUES AND
NOW my feet are
messed up and this
has me really
scared. i need to
find help and also
help myself better.
NURTURE ME and not
focus on my parents
so much.
was so grateful my
parents and i had
dinner. had not done
that in around 25
years at the same
table. helping my
mom through grief in
the loss of her
husband who suddenly
passed away from
heart attack on
01/30/15. i am a
little overwhelmed
by my own feelings
about my family
issues. need to find
some support outside
the family unit-
lets just say i feel
like my parents and
me are 3 kids who
have no parents. we
are all on our own.
i gotta figure out
how to heal and grow
and feel ok on my
own as an adult.
tired of feeling
guilt and shame
worried about my
feet. they are
cramping up daily
now. they hurt and
looks like i am
slowly getting
bunions, will need
to see a specialist
at UW medical
center- not fond of
steroid shots or
surgery so hope to
find another
solution. my feet
are ok right now but
seem to be getting
worse. i need to do
herbal things,
massage, exercises,
physical therapy
whatever i can do to
heal and keep my
feel as strong and
pain free as
possible. trying to
ride my bike instead
of walking long
distances now.
wearing very
comfortable wide
shoes with good arch
support.
Excited to spend two
nights in a row with
my lover man who
invited me. Grateful
we are having fun
and not letting
challenges stop us
from hanging out and
enjoying each other.
so i'm too nice? is
that my issue? some
think i'm too
selfish? and some
think i am too nice?
and need to stand up
for myself more
fully.
grateful for this
day with my parents
having a nice rare
dinner out and then
seeing my boyfriend
play with his band
live on stage for
the first time ever!
they do a lot of
gigs so i will come
to more shows of
theirs for fun. he's
a great guitar
player and sings
too.... and has good
stage presence!
happy to see him on
stage. proud of him!
turns me on.
i love this! “I have
not lived as a
woman. I have lived
as a man. I've just
done what I damn
well wanted to, and
I've made enough
money to support
myself, and ain't
afraid of being
alone.” —Katharine
Hepburn
my dad and mom are
both like older
brothers and sisters
to me more than
traditional parents.
i feel like we are
all young and
playful and a little
shy and sensitive
i love my parents a
lot. they are both
highly sensitive,
intelligent people
with a great dark
sense of humour. so
grateful they
created me!
Cannot do standing
poses anymore as a
figure model. Might
need to retire. Need
to find a foot
doctor asap and eye
doctor and dentist
covered with my low
income apple health
insurance any help
appreciated. I am
going off Wellbutrin
too. Need to find
better ways to take
care of my whole
body mind heart
soul.
feed your demons. i
need to re read this
book
maybe get another
cat too? first time
in 18 years without
a cat and i am more
stressed out due to
that. having a cat
to love really seems
to calm me down
need to come up with
a healing plan. eye
doctor, dentist,
foot doctor, mental
health person,
nutrition,exercise,
sleep, meditation,
spiritual practice,
massage etc. many
ways to heal and
find balance. NOT
going to do the
pharma route.
the guy i am seeing
says he will go to
the foot doctor with
me! that is is kind
of him. (i saw a
general person
tonight who said
they can refer me to
a specialist) i am
totally grossed out
by the idea that my
joints are messed up
and forming bunions!
it hurts and is so
weird that the body
does that. she said
for now, all i can
do is ice my feet
each night and take
Ibuprofen and rest
my feet
my step dad passed
away suddenly Friday
Jan. 30th from heart
attack. he was a
painter.
Grieving with my mom
on the loss of her
husband and my step
father. For those
who don't know he
passed away
yesterday morning
suddenly while at
home resting. He was
a visual aRtist and
was in love with
eastern philosophy
ramana Maharshi etc
. Very spiritual
man.
photos by me
https://www.flickr.com/photos/shannonkringen/
Made a green
smoothie! got some
frozen blueberries,
kale and collard
greens from the food
bank yesterday! so
wonderful. i also
put hemp protein
powder, chia/hemp/flax
seeds and banana in
it.
was very sad
yesterday (old grief
WaVeS surfacing)
went to my
boyfriends house and
we talked about both
our family
issues/dysfunctions
etc. wounds to
heal....he VALIDATED
many of my inSIGHTS
and feelings about
my challenging
dynamic within my
family- and how i
ended up age 46
feeling in some ways
like i am still a
child trying to grow
and heal into an
adult. what a breath
of fresh air to be
able to talk about
this stuff with him.
he's different than
anyone i have ever
dated. it's not a
fairy tale- but it's
a working friendship
with strong
attraction. i
celebrate this
connection. learning
as i go with it.
had a great day
yesterday with my
guy.= walking in the
park, watching the
tom petty doc. film
part 1, (it's 4
hours long) and
being affectionate
and eating a nice
dinner he cooked for
us....today is: art
modeling soon. sunny
today in seattle.
good morning!
have been dating
someone for 3
months. it happened
sort of accidentally
when my cat was
dying= he was extra
nice to me and also
gave me support in
dealing with cyber
bullies spreading
lies about me.
i modeled for him in
april and august
then we started
dating in october
he is very accepting
of my eccentric way
of life! he's in a
rock band and a
photographer. he's
"freelance" too. we
have much in common
and yet are
stimulateingly
different ! |
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to the bullies and
trolls who seem to
like provoking me |
[Feb. 7th, 2015|07:24
pm] |
to the bullies and
trolls who seem to
like provoking me
ok deleted the
drama. to anyone who
bullies me: you can
think whatever you
want about me. your
choice. tired of
explaining myself. i
am who i am. take it
or leave it. i have
no control over
anyone who gossips
about me. if you are
smart you will ask
me and get to know
me as a real person
and not believe
gossip and assume
things.
yes i went to court
once in 2008 and the
case was dropped.
take care,
http://www.shannonkringen.com/ |
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